Loss and life

I read an article a few years back that some women had fertility issues if they housed a cat. I love all animals and at this time I had my cat Bailey. The summer of 2014 Bailey was ill and I thought that she was fully recovered. That November Bailey stopped eating. Took her to the vet and they had her for a few days running tests. I went 2 to 3 times a day to visit her. Still waiting for her results, she was eating from me so I brought her home. It was a Thursday, I made her comfortable, she ate again and had some water. I was petting her she fell asleep. I quietly went to watch some TV. Not long after I heard a shuffle and Bailey gasping for air. I ran to her and saw her trying to make her way to me. I quickly picked her up and just kept repeating no no no, I’m not ready, please I love you. All the while trying to wrap her in the blanket and calling the vet. She took her last breath in my arms and I knew this but I still put my shoes on and rushed to the vet. I followed them into the room and watched them preform CPR on her, but she was gone. I stayed with her a little while longer. I left empty and broken hearted.
A month later,  I was blessed with you. I knew right away. I sometimes enjoy a glass of wine and I had cleaned the apartment, finished cooking a fabulous dinner, and was waiting for your dad to come home from work. From the week before we had a bottle open and I decided to have some. What a mistake, it was awful. I thought something was wrong with the wine. Your dad that night wanted a beer, so when I got it for him I took a sip. Again, what a mistake. Then it dawned on me what was going on. I kept you to myself,  I didn’t say anything to your dad. A few weeks went by and out of the blue your dad started asking me questions. I was trying keep a straight face because I had a doctors appointment the next morning; needless to say I couldn’t. Found us in Shoppers at 11 at night buying a test. By midnight your dad was on the phone with Cuba as I came out of the bathroom with a positive stick. The next morning the doctor confirmed you. 
My heart put back together and filled with love.